I think we need to get a bigger dialogue started on self-esteem and what that entails.
Fat. I’m just going to go ahead and say it. I feel fat. It almost feels like I’m saying a dirty word.
My confidence has been at an all-time low. I’m struggling. I’m not opening up about this to spread negativity, I’m opening up because I know for a fact that I’m not the only one who feels this way.
I think we need to get a bigger dialogue started on self-esteem and what that entails. Everyone always says to “love yourself” but how many of us actually know what that means? Maybe it means something different for each person.
I’m at a standstill with this. I like who I am and I think I add a light to this world and inspire others. I just wish I could look in the mirror and feel happy. Even editing photos and creating content has been difficult. All I see are flaws. All I feel is how everyone else is better than me. In my heart though, I know these feelings are temporary and I do have hope.
When I feel like this, I feel so spiritually disconnected. I vibrate highest when I’m my most confident. What I have now though, is invaluable. AWARENESS. I am able to sit face to face with my emotions and identify how I am feeling.
Next is the hard part. Making a change. Something you can’t do without awareness. So right now, my worst enemy is myself and I’m the only one standing in my way. I’m making lifestyle changes to see results in my body changing and becoming fit again. I’m also learning to speak to myself in a kinder and more gentle tone. To take the pressure off, which is something I have always struggled with.
Taking it day by day and feeling excited that I have the opportunity to implement fresh changes into my life and to change my lifestyle. I’m such a creature of habit (check out my last post on that HERE) that I get afraid to change even though it brings great blessings.
Maxi dress by French Connection (Purchase HERE)
Necklace was given as a gift (Similar HERE)
DKNY Hester Mule Peep Toe (Purchase HERE)
Lipstick is by Sephora Collection in shade (Purchase HERE)